I am working on the 4th butterfly dragon in my newest series of 4 images...and I hate it. After completing the last one with the bleeding heart I decided to change the butterfly it was based on. I figured a tiger swallowtail was too close to the one that I just finished. So, after spending a few hours on the computer looking at other butterflies I decided on a peacock swallowtail in a blue/green color. I collected a few photos and reworked the drawing to reflect the new piece, then got to work. I finished the flower in one night, then started the butterfly the next day. The black work went in first, then the color...and that's when it stopped working as a painting. The blue green color was too close to the leaves in the flower, and its just not working. He blends right into the foliage of the flower. This will not work. I tried to fix him, but the more I work *sigh* I will be starting the whole thing over from the drawing, and will be going back to the tiger swallowtail that the image was meant to be originally.
There is something most artists go through. The HATE of their own artwork. I go thought it about twice a year, and it ends up being a good thing. I love my style, my subject matter, and things like that. Its purely execution that I'm not happy with. The technical aspects and process that makes up the way I do things. It started with the newest piece.
Once I made this decision I started to go back and look at my work from the past year. I'm happy with most of it, but would really like to bring MORE into my work. More texture, More lighting, More detail, and More in the backgrounds. I feel my work is almost to simplistic, and I'm ready to work harder on it. Basically I need to slow it down when I work. I'm rushing things too much, and getting sloppy. its really noticeable in parts of the piece that I don't think is "fun". That is just something that I need to get over to take my work to the next level. Always growing and changing is a good thing for an artist to go through, no matter what stage in their career they are in. That is probably my biggest new years goal this year. Slow down, take my time, and really cram more into each painting. :D
The life wanderings of a fantasy artist trapped in a real world.